sil& houetted-*

2007-12-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

wow...
ages since i have ever ever ever came here.
sigh my last post dated a wholly 3 months ago, before eoys...
hm.
i guess the only right explanation for this long disappearance is the lack of interest, which holds true.
other reasons are probably trival things like being the lazy person i am, cant be bothered to update, sometimes with more 'interesting' things to do, forgetting i had a blog.
haha i really would like to thank everyone who still bothered to tag and ask about my existence on this face of the planet :D (though i really did appeared to be rotting away in some faraway cemetery with the fact that i seldom appeared online on msn hehe)

nvm!
a little update..(:
only a little more than a week to school and i seriously am not in the mood D:<
not because i am absolutely hectic, or have a lot on my hands, but just really, not done with relishing the everydays of lovely holidays :D hehheh but i think recently i am being..quite a..pariah or something. xb
in dec, other than 1 class outing, 1 exclass outing, 2 friends outings, and some christmas shopping with my mum, i have been staying at home for most of the time.
hm other than a few rare going to k's or coming to mine, all these meetings are like, only a week of one whole month...
esp recent days..
i am not complaining at home (at all)or wanting to go out, but i think every human being still need to..erh socialise? like its some kind of nature thing born in you...i just sometimes feel an urge to talk to someone if im at home, and not on the msn..
bah anyway it wont happen.
yep oh & btw, today i just received the notice from nus for my gz exam..guess what? merit man. i think i love the examiner. i swear i didnt bribe her haha. u know..if i can get merit, i think most people can get distinctions alr, and im not kidding at all. i have to be the worst..that day was quite crazy literally, i know i was nervous, but my heart didnt really increase its rate significantly or something. when i played, i..felt no sense of..me. it really was crazy. like nothing, my hands, my brain, my whole body-none of them belonged to me..
and listening for me sucked so bad...>< minor 3rd totally totally blew my marks away...D;
BUT still i got merit. i dont feel triumphant (cos that had to be my worst possible performance ever & i still got merit so if i just stayed the usual i could have possibly gotten a distinction) but i guess...
nope it didnt really lift my spirits either.
aiya either way, its over....
anw recently i have taken a liking to read fanfics. :DD i think i am going nuts (mmm well at least im pretty sure my eyes wont deepen in degrees anymore..) but i cant stop.
maybe i have gone so crazy..that now i dont even mind those haha loud blaring bands that i would have absolutely hated in the past. like MCR & linkin park. ok not all of their songs, but some, that still had some kind of melody and such in them...

see? i have just prattled about nothing of any importance in some rather long paras and i should call .... but its a lil late...oh well no matter :D

oh and i dont know if this is the end for this blog..but i wont delete it anyway; i like to reminise? reminisce? (i cant spell for nuts....) :D
its quite funny and entertaining to read those past entries...haha whether they were meant to be emo or what. ;D

and so for now...
bye bye! i love this blog haha!
happy christmas and happy new year!!!
(with the imminent dreaded reopening of school >< D:)
rah still, cherish the last days... :D

2007-09-12T17:58:00.000+08:00

eek i think i shall be good & do some tagged quizzes(:
eh linxi & shir tagged the same quiz! so i shall do two:D
and and a long ago quiz of hongkai haha

1. (The person who tagged you is)
LINXI!

2. (Your relationship with him/her is)
classmate, groupmate, good friend:D

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her)
#1 cute & a lil blur! haha
#2 SUPER CLEVER!
#3 AND hardworking!!
#4 helpful, a girls guide!
#5 petite! really!

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)
i dont ever rmb this kind of stuff..say, the bio sia then! she organised & arranged the foundation of the key! & we got rather high marks:DDD

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you)
haiyo dont rmb leh..:]

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will)
...
make her eat more? (& dont waste food! >:D)

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)
her very small appetite! haha oh no then she'll become a fatty like me! hehe

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will)
... stuff her with food?! im being crazy.

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be)
she ate my food -.- (firstly she never will hehheh)

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is)
aw give me some of her super intelligence):

11. (your overall impression of him/her is)
kind & a prokia! ;D

12. (how do you think people around you will feel about you)
lazy & crazy. (it rhymes!)

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is)
eh if i start on something i will definitely do my best to finish it.

14. (on the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is)
slack & slack & slack; + distracted by lots of things!

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is)
being myself luh, no one is really ideal though.

16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them)
thank you merci! :D

17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1. linxi (this can go on & on..)
2. shirlynn!
3. wanting!
4. hongkai!
5. tongzhen!
6. shermaine!
7. jiinn! (aw i miss playing tug-o-war during ICT today xD)
8. jolinee!
9. chongmin!
10. yeujia!

who is no.6 having a relationship with? [shermaine]
sher is a guai girl.. but hm who knows!

is no.9 a male or female?[chongmin]
female!

if no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? [jiinn & yeujia]
gosh poor jiinn will be infected with the virus, & the sickness of yeujia!

what is no.2 studying about? [shirlynn]
anything & everything..?

when was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? [wanting]
hmmm maybe today? i dont really rmb..

what kind of music does no.8 like? [joline]
HAHA horry music! *cues our music group's tribal cum horror music*

does no.1 have any siblings? [linxi]
yes..a sister..right..? ><

will you woo no.3? [wanting]
oh no no we must be good students & study! hehheh:D

how about no.7? [jiinn]
haha no but i would like to play neopets with her!

is no. 4 single? [hongkai]
woo..probably not. (hm hehheh)

what's the surname of no.5? [tongzhen]
LIMMM

what's the name of no.10? [yeujia]
yeujia. aka. squid!

what's the hobby of no.4? [hongkai]
hobby ar? playing puzzles pirates? haha! :D

do no.5 and 9 get along well? [tongzhen & chongmin]
woo i have no idea. maybe chongmin will pester tongzhen till she dies or something. ok i dont know what im talking.

where is no.2 studying at? [shirlynn]
nanyang girls!

say something casual about no.1 [linxi]
she's petite:D

have you tried developing feelings for no.8? [joline]
hah yeah maybe i will love her after she plays the wonderful music composed by her (& jessica!)

here does 9 live? [chongmin]
novena!

what colour does no.4 like? [hongkai]
hm i never really knew about that before. i think it depends on her mood? /:

are no.5 and 1 best friends? [linxi & tongzhen]
hm rather good friends at least to say(:

does no.7 like no.2? [jiinn & shirlynn]
yessss...

did you get to know no.2? [shirlynn]
yes my desk partner:DD

does no.1 have any pets? [linxi]
hm living in such a big house i think she should..but i rmb last time go her house i dont see any pets around..

is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? [jiinn]
wah jiinn?! not really..but she is cute(:
-

& i just realised hongkai also tagged me this same quiz! o.o so popular!
aye i shall do shir's & do another one of hongkai's then! :D
sidetrack: i have a lot of ulcurs againnn...

1. (The person who tagged you is)
SHIRLYNNN

2. (Your relationship with him/her is)
classmate, deskpartner!, good friendd:DD

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her)
#1 small eyes like mine! (oops heh)
#2 random & crazy!
#3 prokia luh. clever!
#4 naughty..?!
#5 she's hardworking:]

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)
i dont rmb leh..

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you)
doing doing doinggg!

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will)
become crazy..xD

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)
erhhh? i dont know!? eat more...?!

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will)
take revenge & give her lots of spicy food. -.-

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be)
看不顺眼! hahahah!

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is)
stop doing maths rev papers so fast! ;(

11. (your overall impression of him/her is)
crazy & random but still pro:D

12. (how do you think people around you will feel about you)
hm what did i answer for linxi?
oh i rmb.
crazy & lazy! (it rhymes!) wahaha!

eek questions all the same one! i shall not do le. hehheh.
-
off to hongkai's quiz a long time ago!

[1] hongkai!
[2] shirlynn!
[3] linxi!
[4] joline!
[5] jiinn!
[6] tongzhen!
[7] shermaine!
[8] chongmin!
[9] rania!
[10] yeujia!
[11] caoyun!
[12] WANTING!

1) Why did you put Friend 1 [hongkai] first?
because she tagged me this(:

2) Friend 12 [wanting] last?
erh i looked at her modelly picture & poof her name:D

3) What do you think 3 [linxi] is wearing right now?
haha shirt & shorts! maybe something to do with pooh & the friends! haha;D

4) Have you ever had a crush on 7 [shermaine]?
hah not really but her dancing attracts me! ;D

5) What is most attractive about 4 [joline]?
so nutty random and funny to be with! really!

6) What is least attractive about 11 [caoyun]?
nothing really. so smart & tall & appopriately crazy! haha!

7) How did you meet 9 [rania]?
beloved cca guzheng!<333

8) If you had to label 2 [shirlynn], what would you label him/her as?
label...? erh erh i think she's a volcano?! sometimes dormant sometimes dangerous but still a very exciting & interesting thing (for me). i think im not making any sense at ALL.

9) Have you ever kissed 6 [tongzhen]?
GOSH i wont and she wont want that too! o.o she'll probably run away in horror and disgust! :D

10) Where do you usually go to meet 5 [jiinn] ?
eh her desk? canteen? we talk more often during ICT since we sit side by side;D
aw neopets<3

11) What could you see 10 [yeujia] doing for a living?
wow. this is very very hard (OOPS) to predict. she can go be mad scientist and discover new medications for sinus noses! haha:DD

12) Is 8 [chongmin] a model?
O.O hm. really. no. i think she'll be much better off being..herself. heh.

12) What song describes 5 [jiinn]
hurhhhh...
i really dont have no idea. xP

13) Do you think 3 [linxi] could kill someone?
my goodness. NO. being so gentle, i dont think linxi will to kill a mosquito! hahaha!

14) Does 9 [rania] look like a girl or a boy?
-.- she is a girl and looks like one.
thought she said she looks like aqua with her fringe clipped up.
nono she is a girl and still looks like one. :D

15) Does 1 [hongkai] play any video games?
PUZZLE PIRATES! if not, what else? :D
haha my acct already like deleted becos it has been so dusty and they finally said they will delete it. /:

16) What flavor ice cream does 4 [joline] like?
this, i really dont know cos i had never seen her eat ice cream before.
/:

17) Has 2 [shirlynn] ever broken someones heart?
yeah probably...*smiles mysteriously* who knows?

18) Do you think 8 [chongmin] would rather have a million dollars or their true love?
hah both. she has been pestering to get $2 from me since dont know how long (luckily now i dont really see her), but i think she is greedy and would prefer true love too...

19) Would you/do you trust 6 [tongzhen]'s driving skills?
..NO. firstly she sits weirdly/legs too long, and she cant step on the pedal or the brake properly. gosh imagine if the pedal became brake & brake become pedal! o.o she's as blur as me so hm, i think she's better off not driving:D

20) If you and 11 [caoyun] were locked in a closet, what would you do?
gosh i hope the closet is dark. and i will cover my ears. because she will start going on about 1. sick stuff 2. random stuff 3. horror stuff 4. singing weird songs (we were locked in a staircase once and she did that-.- but it was interesting:DD)

21) How often do you talk to 4 [joline]?
erh regularly? she usually disappears during breaks to eat. i think. i dont see her!

22) Do you want 3 [linxi]'s body?
hm. i think i like my big body better. not her petite one. oh no that sounds sick:X

23) You and 10 [yeujia] are stranded on an island. How would 10 try to save yourselves?
wave frantically, go nuts, panic, panic, then probably gives up and sleeps. -.-

24) What stores does 8 [chongmin] get their clothes from?
erherh...i dont know. /:

25) If you could change one thing about 6 [tongzhen], what would it be?
CUT HER LONG SIDE FRINGE! haha

26) What annoys you the most about 9 [rania]?
she's too tall. really. D:

27) What is the best thing 5 [jiinn] has done for you?
ooh actually quite a lot, esp last year i think?
making me laugh and go siao!
i only rmb today when we went crazy playing tug-o-war during ICT lesson!
wahaha cos we are guai and finished the assign long ago..
damn funny:DDDD

28) If 7 [shermaine] were a restaurant, which would they be and why?
probably has a nice ambience, and near some arts area? you know dance, arts, the kind of stuff?

29) Do you know any dirty secrets of 12 [wanting]'s?
i dont think so, she is definitely not dirty minded..><

30) At your wedding, what would 11 [caoyun] be doing?
probably eating away all the food at the wedding. -.- hehheh or scaring people away! haha:D

31) What is 8 [chongmin] most afraid of?
hurh i think its...nothing? i dont really see her in horror before.

32) What animal should 1 [hongkai] be and why?
hmmm..a rabbit?! so random but i think rabbits are so cutee! she should just be who she is now. HAH.

33) What do you think 10 [yeujia] is thinking right now?
thinking of revising, studying, and attempting not to sleep?
(aw she's hardworking)

34) What is the worst thing 7 [shermaine] could do to you?
i cant imagine shermaine doing any horrible things to me.
maybe...making me sing (& dance!) for our music project? aw..

35) Would 3 [linxi] be hot as the opposite gender?
hurh you mean change sex? eeks! she wont do that.

36) Is 12 [wanting] going to read this?
maybe, maybe not?

37) Why or why not?
because i think she doesnt usually read my blog. (:

38) What were your first thoughts when you saw 7 [shermaine]?
such a sunshine smile! really...:D

39) Do you trust 2 [shirlynn] with your deepest secrets?
haha but seriously, i dont have any deep secrets...

40) Would 12 [wanting] make a good teacher?
yeah, esp in an area she's good at? smarty pants wanting!

DONEDONEDONE
oh no i spent an hour on this DDDx
okay back to study now!!
OH AND.
i think i shall just say in case the very small amount of people who still cares to read my blog sees that my blog dies..
i am a HIATUS
cos i want to concentrate on eoys,
and having a blog somehow makes me feel responsible to update it.
haha!
yeah okay the end!
byebye blogggg!

2007-09-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

brrrrrrr
i think i will die soon,
becos my head has gone mad,
and i meant literally. )):
ARGH.

last friday seemed so long ago,
yet so near.
haha!
i missed the superb performances that dayyyyy!
i dont know why but i nearly cried!
it almost turned into children's day because the teachers' performances really really was very very entertaining..:DDD
gah then i rush rush to back to unity.
lucky i wasnt really very late..
met a whole bunch of people on 302(:
haha chatted with jiaxin
actually we really have not spoken for like 2 years,
but it felt like we were talking like we did in primary sch days,
and it wasnt awkward at all,
and i like the feeling;
:D
then we went over to wenfei's house for bbq,
and seriously the sun was burning can!!
hothothot
bbq mostly consisted of uncooked chicken wings (-.-), nice satay, beehoon, and stuff
and then we went back to the house and played games like truth or dare, murderer, & this game where you put your card on your forehead,
only others can see it,
they would tell you to change or stay,
but its your choice if you want it,
and after a round, the lowest do a forfeit!
:D

it was a wonderful day really,
interacting with my current, and ex classmates..
:]

ah pictures!

206<333 (without hk..)

shir & meee! <33

im showing this bcos yeujia looks damn funnyyy!

and lastly wanting who looks so different! hahaxD

monday:
was a sad day.
i could feel the loss although i wasnt close,
a lil heartache, a lil emptiness

tuesday (aka today):
mug mug!
with yeujia hk tongss
i think, it was a rather entertaining session.
so harddd...
-

i think i low blood pressure!
/:

dadada i saw yutan and the rest under my house today!
haha(:

2007-08-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

):
why is everyone like, i dont know, studyingg...
>< BAH eoys eoys eoys eoys eoys eoys
strangely i still havent feel the pressure on me yet /:
so i am absolutely not studying):

monday:
was dragged to buy teachers day presents with caoyun to westmall!
we bought & 'wrapped' in around 1 hr which is considered very fast okay!
(for 2 fickle-minded people)
i own her $7.80...
tuesday:
/: at first had mugging session i wanted to study physics then...
cos pam somehow didnt go..
ok rania didnt la
then the gaga tong go, dont go, go then in the end-didnt go too.
haiyo so i went home & slept? played? who knows.
TODAY:
stayed back with jessica to do ICT assignment!
im rather proud of my own work so haha(;

this is my inspiration picture SO CUTE RIGHTT

All of them are so kawaii righttt!
:DDD
i like the doughtnut and sushi best!
and and..for the sushi one, they are actually using that pic to merchandise,
and i saw all the different kinds of products like t-shirts, notebook, clock..
and i WANT ITS TOTE BAGGGG!!!><
its super uber nice...):
anw, all rights all to deviantart(:

i shall prac gz! ^^

2007-08-25T15:10:00.000+08:00

today is a day that i dont feel like doing anything
...
...

boh liao luh.
oh well this week...
-history test full mark:D
-french controle easier than i thought it to be:D
-i still suck at yueergao & jiangjunlinD:
-mug with tong & pam (with the result of completion of scws 3.1, maths, and chem chemical formulas until 90!) so :D except for the live the gorillas at my elbow by the work of pam D: sigh i never thought a sec 4 can be so erh childish! :]
-& i helped the dang k with art can! i havent finish my own model/:

i shall play neopets!
and find nice songss
my life is so routine actually...

boing boing boing!

2007-08-13T10:13:00.000+08:00

gwah.
i should be packing and dressing, ready to go off.
but i dont feel like it(:
wahh today at first supposed to watch secret with rania & pam at lido(& some others?)
but i had r&j presentation meeting..
so too bad no secret))):
but still, well well r&j is more important..

and i supposed to go at 10.30...
in case i am late as always
but looking at the clock i think im going to be quite late.
GAH
i have done nothing productive throughout the whole holidays
maybe i learnt how to play when you're gone
but nothing else.
SO happy.
but there isnt much to do luh..
><
back to school tmr :x
-

and ooh sat's 90th anniversary was..a very filling day.
haha i ate like, 3 breads provided by sch and gz,
one burger myself,
and another at burger king for dinner.
that makes 5 breads/burgers a day!
o.O
performance was okay?
anyway they were all eating, talking,
but i think dinners are like this luh.

okay have to go.
why do i have third langgggggg
i am crapping.
randommingg about
i am madddddd

wheee i audi-ed. ><

2007-08-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

hehheh i finally managed to play audition after some long long months...
and it was funnnn! :DDD
played with 2 new people and they are pro & niceee(:
then stupid k went & sadly i left../:
see la k your fault!
gah anw.

today is x-cross country!
& i think i did well?
at first i ran with caoyun..
run run run
slap (her)
run run run
slap (her)

haha then erh met alicia & zexin and ended running some while with alicia & yay sprinted to the finishing linee^^
kfc with hk~
i miss the chickens & popcorn chicken & cheese friess xD

and and
slacked a while at home then played audi! yay <333
very happy it worked..(finally)
-

><
90th in 2 days..
& i am kinda scared.
yes, hengchun & endless love are quite erh old songs,
but i still am quite nervous.
and and i must practise yue er gao moree!!!
supposedly grade 8 piece..
it is much better than the pressing like mad song/:

anw on another note,
i am going to pack myself with food on saturday!!!
probably tabao stuff from mcdonalds bef going,
then bring sandwiches,
bread,
and whatever i can think of!
haha keyu reminded me!
wahlao whoever supposed to provide us lunch is so evil can.
just because we didnt reach the venue at 7.45 like the musical people,
we dont get lunch. -.-
we still reached at 11 can?!
haha and we the sec 2s sneaked? out to buy chicken rice from the food court at raffles city shopping centre, which of course invited lots of stares from the people.
-

french controle, individual speech, tidy files & bookshelf!
><
dont feel like doing anything.

if only you were here,
just you,
you alone,
it makes all the difference

BAH

2007-08-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

old blogskin went berserk with the background images
so i decided to change!
hehheh i like the new one too<3

& i just saw the tags!
o.o so fast!
i dread cross countryyy
and i want to buy hp..
but i think,
oh well...
one day soon

><

2007-08-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

i have not been here for dinosaur years lerrrr..
and i am quite erh happy some people still bothered to tag.
haha(:
thanks btw!
-

yay everything is over, tests, essays, and what awaits is FIVE DAYS FULL of holidayssssss!!!:DDDD
though actually i have no idea what to do luh.
as in...
rather boring?
i have not found any good games to play,
neither will i study the whole 'week',
or read books..?!

hmmmm
let's see:

thur-going out then a..a..party...?! huaxin will be coming over^^
fri-hah complete slackkkkk day! ): i would probably just waste my day away...
sat-oh well whole day occupied by 90th anniversary/: how i wish i could sit there and eat and not performmm...
sun-just another routine day, go out with folks, eat eat, shop shop haha
mon-another slackk day): ohoh afternoon with k & mel! yay no slack day(:
-

sometimes i am quite speechless at what you say,
just at a loss what to reply.
cant seem to find the words to comfort,
console,
i am really not out to be a counsellor..
but how i wish i could

-

found scores of when you're gone but im not playing now cos it erh, sounds weird..
and quite hard cos whatever i play sounds wrong, or the score is wrong (highly unlikely..)
/:
i want to playyy
-

grrr tell me what games to play!/:

2007-07-23T18:43:00.000+08:00

yay.
a new blog;D

today's maths test was quite alright!
well, definitely better than the last term's one (at that point of time)
and i could finish!!
waha except for the bonus question, & some qn i think have a bit errors (like i always do)but in whole, it was good!
;D

sat is cca and cip flag day!
damn tiring can.
with xiaolei & xueying,
then tongzhen & jieyun? joined our grp cos their melody not there!
wah it was hard, like last year..
i think i very little luh can!
our first location outside wisma wasnt fruitful for me..
then we moved to uh opposite shaw house!
and i got a lot coming in..(:
then after a break at burger king,
i was too lazy to ask for money so business was no good.
hah, tongzhen in the end still had a lottt!
poor tingyi was having a headache;(
xiaolei got quite a lot tooo..
& somemore near the end a bunch of sec 1 went to bugis (o.O)
to collect money so i bet money will roll in for them man.
-

then gah waited for the stupid fool then ah well i was so tired and just you know,
in a state of blurness so i just went to a busstop with rania & took 190 home.
heh didnt realised i could have called her but nvm;D
-

WAH HARRY POTTERRRR!
and the deathly hallowsss
almost bought it when my father had to remind my mum that i have tests and i will read like nobody's business and therefore no book till they are over..);
oh well.
fine.
i shall watch HP:OOTP later!
wahahah;DDDD

yay nice junior keyu might get me HP book 1-3 for my birthday presents!
hah touched:D

note: oooh i just remembered i saw a snape-lookalike on orchard that day!
woah man his hairstyle was really like him!! o.o

2007-07-20T18:51:00.000+08:00

Toast of War

-.-
i think this game is cute but lame?

It's a Done Deal

haha i was finishing this at first!
quite fun but /: in the enddd...
kinda bohliao la.
this week has been busy (or i made myself busy)
and hardly any time for me to enjoy so here i am.
altho tom is fully occupied by cip and cca, sunday again by r&j presentation, and i have MATHS on monday.
:O!!!
and i didnt do my elearning french.
:xxx
nvm.
-
wahaha
i want to read

but obviously plus order fees up to 60 bucks
i wont have to money,
neither does my mum wants to buy tooo
/:
i'll just have to shut my ears for the rest of the months,
and buy it when the price hopefully drops.
arrrrr
it will be harddd
hermione cant dieeeee...
:(

2007-07-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

jiayin --

[noun]:

A person who falls into an outhouse and dies

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

apparently, an outhouse is a toliet. -.-?! fine i died in a toilet like moaning myrtle.

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

my god. paris hilton. i would gladly prefer not to be missed by her. aha *smirks*

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

:] remember me as i was. yeah i might just really write that. :D

bohliao me.
lalala tis world is joyful not.
thy smile i cry.
thy cry i smile.

close eyes.

2007-07-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

ar i am slacking i am slackingggg
shit i havent do my as 1.2, 1.3, 2.1,
or done my geog rev,
or finish my r&j timeline
or planned out anythingg!!
BOOO.
///:

-
today has been quite a day for my eyes.
ROMEO & JULIET..ar thy juliet, wherefore art thou romeo?
stupid.
watched finished the movie today, & well. as expected though.
explicit, explicit, explicit.
but actually the more i think of it,
i come to realise that the movie is really a touching one.
(i dont know how i can look past those over-sexual scenes)
but romeo and juliet's love is actually rather touching to me now.
somehow i feel it was more than an infatuation,
but under those circumstances, they just well, fell in love deeply.
dada (oops) im blabbering nonsense.

yes ok then bio was os wonderfully visual huh?
woah the penis aka broomstick rises!
until 45 degrees.
marvelous.
mrs sandy tan's 'pig tails' aka oviducts,
her face aka the uterus,
and her neck the cervix & vagina.
o.O
"the ____ gland is like a doughnut."
the whatever tubes are wires?!: shuting
oh man bio is interestinggg
wahaha seriously!
i think i might like it;DD
& i think i am good at microscopes!
hmm i might choose bio over physics if i choose humans with 2 sciences!
lala!

ok it's 9
it's bad.
boo i think i might be mad.
i wrote another chinese compo becos i think my previous is too crap.
and so i did.
o.O?!
bah.
ok byebye<3

2007-07-08T09:35:00.000+08:00

shit i hate blogger where is the font bar??
shit i am in a damn bad mood.

i wont cry for you.
my tears are not worth it.
whether you are going to care or not, i dont care anymore.
you left, right in front of me
and i wont be begging to take me with you.
i wont depend on you.
i cant cry.

i let myself cry for 5 seconds,
once its over, i wont cry.
or feel anything for you.
just for 5 seconds,
i let that anger, distraught take over me.
but after that, i throw them in the bin.
-

ar yesterday open house was tiring.
seriously!
basically played everything?
and endless love was really killer becos my arm ached so much..
have not really prac much, so well everything has rusted! /:
i still love hengchun the best though!;DD
andand..chunmiao!!
but uh i lent the pu to jiayun so i shall wait till she returns.
:)
but it was a fruitful day luh.
-

why does america makes such nice dramas??
lost, pb<3
hehe;)
-

ar i shall go reply tags!
anw ahhhh K!
an honour for u to tag me huh?
heh <3

2007-07-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

ar dead me and blog.
sigh there is a weird sense of emptiness in me today.
i dont know why.
anw, today was like, prac gz like mad.
basically prac juhuatai for the whole afternoon?
/: becos grp 2 not good luh.
the beat, rhythm, and oh well.
i suppose after today's prac its better?
quite much better.
it was tiring, physically, mentally.
haha dont think sitting down is easy okay!
it takes energy to focus & perseverance to keep practising really.
but i still am..worried on thurs.
/: hope for the best, & do the best?
ar anw.

i love when you're gone by avril lavigne!

it's lovely, sweet and just so touching.
saw it on mtv and it got me crying.
the 2nd, 3rd time i watched on youtube, i cried even more.
i dont know why, it doesnt actually even really relates to me?
but the tears simply just pour out :(
seeing the old man looking at the photograph, crying, feeling his partner's clothes tears me so..
but for the 4th time, i didnt cry anymore. i smiled.
haha so weird.
it's the kind of feeling that you feel fortunate for yourself.
:)
the kind, you're glad you are not experiencing it now.
-

ar blogger is screwed.

-

i think i have a mental disorder.
really.
shut too long?
lone, turning to crazyness?
-

and if you are looking at this, which is quite impossible,
je t'aime.
:]

2007-06-23T12:53:00.000+08:00

woah!

end of hols alreadyy!
like, time really fliess
>:(
sad it is so fast over...
and soon all the stress, hw & sias will start crashing in again
the tests!
:o
anw, on a lighter note,
i set a record in this holidays!!
wahahah i actually finished all my chinese sia in ONE DAY!!!
miracle or not??!
gah it was wednesday,
then i finished all of them! woo hoo
actually i surfed net most of the time though.
but still managed to finish just before dad returned home!
haha
& im proud of some of them which i think is quite good i hope:D
-
i just happened to see a s.h.e. mv yesterday?
and seeing hebe's short hair i rmbed about my own promise to cut which is altho like ages ago.
ar yes i will cut after test!
teehee
that song was okay, but hebe looked pretty there leh.
-
ytd's cca was so fun & nice!
played a lot of songs and oh man they are nice;)
then potluck was like all-you-can-eat buffet for me?!
okay i admit eating a lil too much.
but ar i didnt eat pam's erh dish!
i thought it was some eggy thing then ltr realised it was a tart? with cream?
i love the cream puffs, seaweed chicken, & beehoon/fried rice!
and for the number-guessing game, i was hit twice-.-!
had TWO bowls of lontong :O
was quite full lar.
m4 is so much better!
so big and cooling.
anw i fell off my chair like the times in class??
i think i should glue my butt to the chair-.-
i just, teeter too much on the edge, then i sat until the behind legs lift up then then i just oh well get too caught up with whatever thats going on & fall?
/:
-

bwah.
tried to embb a game i kept playing today just now but realised it is very big.
too big till it covers my whole blog.
i cant change the width n length.
it has no effects?
i think my posts are boring!
boo.
okay farewell.
boring boring me..

2007-06-17T15:03:00.001+08:00

boo.
its fathers day today!
erh but my present is rather crapped.
stupid banana cake!
grr! shouldnt have listened to my mum who said to bake a banana+walnut cake.
:/
it turned out...not as moist or soft to the taste;(
oh well. try harder next time!
but i kinda sick of baking cakes haha.
er scones? bread? oh well.
bored & sian now.
yes, i have a pile of things undone,
but just too bored to care about them.

-physics rev
-do the print out hist & geog rev notes
-bio read up?
-chem rev
-chinese sia!!!!
-read french lib bks & une tulipe noire
-read habits
-read shui hu zhuan!
-chi & maths assess
-make sure LA file has everyth in it.

arr this is killer considering i still have gz on 2 days next wk!
shit shucks oh BUSH.
im gna die.
okay.
physics i shall at 4pm.
then 2 sias till dinner or sth.
read shui hu zhuan at night
& check LA file.

the rest,
/:
i shall do a weekly planner for next week bah.
boo
& from now till 4 i shall erh. slack & play around a lil.
:DDD
-

its unknowingly seeping into all of us,
destroying us inside out,
and, outside in.
its silent,
but everyone knows it exists.
and sooner or later,
it will show itself,
whether in a good or bad light.
its hard to 'survive',
really. hard to.
to resist the temptation.
i pray,
its okay,
it will be,
alright

2007-06-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

woot.
very long never posted alr!
was very busy and erh cant be botheredd..
ar nothing much recently?
finished geog assign with wanting counting cars,
ooh and that day hongkai came too.
and we kinda played worms world party!
hahah donkey! it was interestingg:D
then went to sch lib with hongkai again today for study date.
which we erh rather played miniclip or sth.
at least i did my maths n chinese!
:)
arr candy n clyde i like spastic cute and hah pointless games.
-
baked my first cake last wk!
haha my butter cake was quite a success!
not too sweet, not too tasteless, firm, and..just like the ones outside!
:D
shall bake one for fathers day! yay;)
-
oh man and i realised..
i have watched like 3 movies this holidays alr o.o
200 pounds beauty, pirates, and ocean thirteen
pirates was really not as nice as the previous two..
but still okay bah.
ocean thirteen is a lil boring at first,
but it is NICE! as in..relaxing & enjoyable.
200 pounds made me cry;
well. i cry very easily these days watching stuff really!
well well..
-
shall go search for recipe now!
hallelujah!
;D

2007-06-02T10:47:00.000+08:00

eheh hello world!
im er back. from 4 days of tioman(:
safely! & i enjoyed myself greatly:D
yay i shall recount now!

DAY 1
reached school like 5.45am and dadada (oops shit im really becoming heng)
yuxuan came and couldnt go because she had flu! :(
i had too, as in much more serious the day before and luckily that morning i was better after eating the medicine from the clinic the night before.
long long ride and we watched just follow law on the bus!
then ferry ride which i slept for most of the time with shiya playing pokemon silver & caoyun composing songs with shaoting?
yeah then TIOMAN!<3 the water is clear la, but somehow it doesnt seem very uh those kind of pristine blue colour i saw in gold coast n uh the tangalooma island. hah. but still the water is quite clear!
walk walk to our melina beach resort! /: there was no aircon as guaranteed on the sheet of paper but well it IS very cold at night. contrary to libin n zexin who slept with no blanket or just complained its hot. oh yes my room is with them for the first 2 nights, & quekying (208) additional the last night!
we then had SNORKELLING! however the water wasnt as clear or sth, and all i saw was just the coral reefs and seaweeds & those plants. no fishes! :( anw i like almost died can. i really cant swim alr and i kept swallowing seawater from my nose and mouth and it was unbearable with my sore throat n cough lo. still i survived.

DAY 2
rainforest surveys!
wah took a long bumboat ride all the way to a main village in tioman, and walked & walked & walked & walked (x infinity)
really man i was DEAD tired.
walk walk walk all those boulders and rocks and steep slopes through the rainforest.
first site was a secondary one, & me n cao n shiya did the maturity index using the relascope then primary forest did soil sample.
along the way we saw lots of creatures like the tractor millipede? some reptiles too
hah then we walked all the way back again.
it was really tiring.
as in, tired till youre like numbed alr.
when we reached back the resort i was attempting to wash my trousers from first day then i was like dripping so much sweat like i just bathed and i dint even realise it man. till i looked in the mirror :o

AH yes i forgot about my dream on the first night.
its absolutely absurd i tell u man.
i dreamt that there was a romeo n juliet play & i was acting in it and it is the acting day alr, then i havent even rmb all the crap lines! then the curtains and i couldnt really rmb the lines i had (but i know there really were actual lines in my dream) then i was reading from my script-.-
then erh after the play my mother came and said it was awful and i replied by saying i know or sth like that.
then zoom to another scene in this huge shopping centre like thing.
hm i was contemplating if i should eat kfc?! then i was walking around and i finally left and dint buy kfc-.-!
THEN i dreamt and saw chongmin O.o!!!
not exactly in a positive light tho. she was following me around the centre, and i told her what i need time to dno what and we should be alone or sth. AS THOUGH we were a couple omg.
then walk walk walk she kept following
then i dreamt of rania! omg the same thing except hers was shorter than chongmin and i rmbed a long long escalator and then the shopping centre then close or sth-.-
so crap then i woke up.
this is really a mad dream.
okay nvm on to

DAY 3
rivers!
we again, walk walk walk through a forest again to reach a village called paya and man there was even a part when we had to grab onto a rope and go down slowly!
saw snakes! & insects throughout the walk too!
at upper course we did the full bank length and etc, measuring the depth n everything, and we ate lunch in the river!
haha sitting on the boulders and putting our feet in the clear cooling shallow waters! there were small shrimps that come onto our feet! aha so ticklish and nice tooo
then at middle course i did river velocity with melissa! i dint intend to get wet really and in the end i got wet till my waist man/:
there were like pondskaters, small fishes, frogs, water snake!, beetles, dragonfly nymphs, and etc. oh and wasp which bit jiayun from 213.
3 on her head n 1 on her finger. it was quite nasty and she had to be sent to the hospital and be on drip cos she vomitted a lot. but still, she returned at night:)
then at lower course was at a mangrove! it was low tide so we could all see the little fiddler crabs all crawling back to their little holes! so cute and there was hermit crabs, frogs, fishes, and etc.
uh walk back to resort again.
night walk is damn cool walking through the forest with torchlights,
and there was a scene when we were walking at the beach, then faraway in the forest were a few coconut trees sticking out of the canopy, then a kelugo spread its wings and glided from a tree to another and the moon was like, big bright and round it was just soooo breathtaking and simply one word-beautiful.
if only i had a camera and captured that moment of beauty! it could easily be a postcard for tioman man.
i think it'll be etched forever in my mind. really. it was just so beautiful, peaceful and heartwarming. it shows so much of the nature in tioman and our guides said that the malaysian gov is cutting away all the rainforest to make an air strip, and all those forests, with its living creatures will be all gone.
its just so angry and u feel for every living creature in the beautiful forest.
that scene just gotta be the most memorable thing in this trip.
you feel so happy, and sad for it, knowing soon no one will be able to see that view.
oh well. moving on.
bonfire!
toasted mashmellows on the real fire!
ah then since it was the last night the other room came to our room and mel shiya zexin n i played taiti? and cheat till 12.30! :x it was fun:)

DAY 4
snorkelling in the morning!
however, however,
i dint do it.
i went into the water and really it was cooling, so clear and pretty but as soon as i dunked my head into it i suddenly like, couldnt breath with my mouth! just dont feel like snorkelling then and thus went back to the shore.
well apparently some said they never saw anything much, and cao said there was pressure there actually, and u feel sick.
i suppose i should be lucky cos that, plus my nervousness, the mere thought of how deep the water is, and i cant really swim, will really freak me out. really.

tioman is really a beautiful place, really, but apparently all those nature will disappear soon, and become modernised. its sad, all those creatures i saw, the rivers, the wonderful big trees, all the walks (yes even the tiring walks) soon all the people wont be able to experience it.
all the people are all so friendly, and warming to us. many, just passers-by or shopkeepers greeted us like hi girls and their smiles simply touch ur hearts.
really.
such a eye opening trip, altho 550 and no aircon, i would go again man, really.
just to see the kelugo gliding past under the moon,
just to hear and see the clear waters rushing down,
just to feel the warmth of the people there,
just to walk all those walks again.

:)

i shall post a picture later. ;]

2007-05-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

long long never post.
woh i think i dont have this posting habit anymore.
anw this week is sabbacticals.
my sabba quite slack lorh
chidrama games n activites were fun, but other than that very boring.
then lang of space even worse slackier!
first day-research. i n sher slacked.
second day-trip. rained. everyone waited for the bus under a shelter. played hp games!
third day-trip. free exploration. aft 1/2 an hour of uh exploration we went to rest at the shopping centre. hah.
fourth day-presentation preparation. did my flash.
fifth day-presentation. perhaps the only day i really did something. everyone had to redo their panels and i suppose our grp's turned out nice.
-
ptm!
it was rather well i suppose.
cos my mum didnt really lecture me a lot and was quite erh high after that and went shopping aft that! ;D
but well i still know heng's words are right luh.
other than her crapping of some random things it was okay.
my mum thinks shes reponsible and has the 'passion'.
she prefers heng over maeho.
but i suppose so bah.
maeho was only our music tcher and my mum said she was 'tired' perhaps due her pregnancy.
haha.
dadada
i wanna change blogskin!
shall do so now
shoots i need to write my summary ahhh
/:
-

Wanting you,to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
-over it

get that into your head if u are reading this.
i've just never said it straight in ur face,
but all this while-
you know yourself best.
all those words u said
the lies and hypocrism
i was just there, for some shield of some sort.
never thought u would resort to this way
was over from the beginning

2007-05-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

ahh long long hiatus eh?
well at least i suppose the busy days are over!
i suppose. anw ytd was shutings bday party, and today french controle/:
-
ahha ytd was quite fun i suppose. met jessica at amk mrt n like, shuting wasnt at home and we were sitting at the some poolside shelter revising a lil of french
and ooh we played at the playground!
haha damn cool playground can!
uh after some time she came then we went for bestway building?
monsieur gilbert's agape learning centre!
haha there have a lot of fooddd and yarh the tution carried on till abt 4+
then we took taxi back to shutings condo.
then uh quite stone there with the other jessica n claire? setting up the fire n bla
well then ethel n tongzhen came!
rachel came following and poor her got pushed into the pool straight!
brr. then i was pushed-.-
bwah but ok at least i brought change of clothes.
well there was satay, chicken wings, beehoon, curry, vegetables<3, potatoes!<3(+cream<333), popcorn? n oh sotong n mussels. and prawns.
quite full lar by around 7+
yeah by that everyone was wet;D
aiyo ethel was pushed,
jessica slide down the slide n therefore was wet,
tongzhen is like, wah clinging onto the bench like she cant live without it.
but sadly n happily, she was still pushed.(:
sarah too!
erh quite fun.
and the nice oreo cheesecake!
i like the oreo!
aha then i went home taking cab and i quickly finish doing my lit circle n revising french!!
ahhh i tell u i really am gna fail this test. /:
shit lar.
aiya forget it.
-
yay i realised i havent post anything abt guzheng!
uh i was at first changed to play group 1!
(with group 3 in group 2): , but group 1 was easy!)
then uh changed to group 2 again lar, because either grp 2 too lil people or grp 1 too many people?
but i suppose its nice.
oops i mean playing juhuatai!
haha i love juhuatai!!
lovely lovely songgg!!
<333
-
ok go back to my lit circle.
im the director for the next meeting! shoots. which is this thur
..and ALSO cca!
shit i better prac my juhuatai n benchi. upgraded to manpao 慢跑? but still stop n run a lot. haha.

2007-05-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

woo.
short post again!
heh.
today is stupidd
because i think i fell down twice,
and my CA marks were absolutely horrible.
i dint even pass 75!
as in, last yr both semester i did.
/:
wth.
anw.
heh
i shall thank joline! for her v. nice keychains for bday presents (ok she gave me much earlier than today, but yeah i 4got! hee) and tongzhen who finally remembered to give me a present!
ahah a sotong stick!! hehe
todays lunch was damn funny!
after coming from popular (happening to see bimp the lester & loanshark)
went back to class
and i cant exactly rmbed what really happened
but all i know is that caoyun was hitting me with the sotong stick (and hit me real PAIN with the other woody end of the stick>:0) then uhuh pass the love! she elbowed me? and i want to pass to tongzhen! then she kept running and i kept chasing and so funny!
haha then the class was writing on the board about linkai being yellow & stuff,
and sotong stick is so lovable! yay
hah but its not as cute as doodoo!
hehe but sotong stick is just as squishable?
hmmmmm..
aiya have history assign and reflections to do!
well but i did something today-i managed to play quite okayily for jiangjunling and benchi!
haha so happy coz i finally can memorize both songs (ok benchi left hand still not exactly yet) and jiangjunling sounds good! (i hope/:) but well when i coordinate with left hand my benchi will become...sanbu?? 散步! hah really lor.
eh tag replies!:
hk: sad no short-hairness yet! grr this weekend must have! actually im now not too sure if i want to cut now, or a mth or so later. aiya dno. my mum keep saying short hair is old-fashioned?
shirlynn: hah nope im not missing sabs! tioman is uh the first wk of hols! so yeah...eh i think i got the same sabs as you! language of space and drama isit?
chongmin: yesyesyes...happy birthday slapping! eh i think i shall slap you on ur bday every year. isnt that such a creative tradion? wahaha! SLAPS!
teckteck: aha i can (fine not very fast) but well yeah it can take some time to learn luh esp the beat and coordination? during sec1 i also spent quite some time learning this piece at the beginning! :)

2007-05-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

just a short post!
erh waiting for my father to reach home so we can go out to eat.
well today aft sch had the tioman briefing!
sounds nice and fun.
just that
-most possibly my skin will become worse. which is absolutely bad because i have an appointment with the nsc 5 days after the trip. :(
-erhem. im uh praying my ___ wont come a tad early or sth. ack.
-it'll be quite tiring. well...but fun and enriching will cover that up.
-lots of walking, walking and, walking. im scared of mosquitoes bites.
-snorkelling is funnnnn, but ah uh i have not swam in a thousand years alr (ok eh 2 years?) and i might just freak out, and start splashing around. and...snorkelling in sth like a pyjamas and SHOES is...weird. ok doesnt matter.

will be missing storytelling for lang arts fest!
but i suppose thats okay because..tioman is more worth it(:

eh my father reach home le.
can hear the door unlocking.
ahhh my chinese sia is rather die.
hand all by end of term 2.
shit.

2007-05-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

tag replies!:
hk-hmmm? whats SYQ? and! my letterr...-narrows eyes-
hehheh i am really ill. was.
ruth-haha jiayin jiayou is an alliteration! :) hee jiayou ruth too!
lydia-ahahah!<3 yeah i am well le thanks;D
yuting-ah long time no see!! miss all of ya! :)
cheem-eh 6c? why? :D
rania-thankss! recovered liao! ;D
jessicateck-haha ok yesyes nice-so-far junior yeah i will. soon. ;D

sigh.
academics and parents.
wont be posting that regularly as before.
/:
which is kinda sad.
but i need to get myself back.
gah
but anw.
new haircut!
will cut even shorter, till cannot tie one,
probably this sat.
haha i am tired of tying my hair liao.
;D
ode was unexpectedly...well?
history was expectedly...the usual.
ah well.
shall go.
i miss guzheng!
yay this sat resume<333

2007-05-04T10:55:00.000+08:00

bleah.
currently sick in house.
;(((
i know u probably think if i am sick,
i shouldnt even have the energy to post.
but well i had to send the scsia report to wanting,
then yarh.
coz in the morning it was much more serious.
and i feel better,
but still the whole body feels weird.
haha.
no energy like that.
physically.
but not mentally.
:D
ack anw i also dont wanna miss sch!!!
now i realised in sch the time actually passes faster than at home!!
uh when u are sick luh, that is.
:(
i am missing class breakfast, history test results, LA period megasia discussion, chinese period to write the compo, and home ec which i missed last time also!
sigh but in the morning it was really cold,
and at night, hah it was worse.
mix of fever and flu.
so i decided not to go to sch, at least in 67 or 302 because they will make me die, firstly because of the waiting and secondly, the damn cold air-con.
hah.
i went back to my bed thinking,
then i fell asleep.
but i suppose i feel better.
so for the sake of my health,
and being able to do other things on sat and sun (which is A LOT of things to say)
i missed sch.
sadly.
hah.
i still have to finish chinese compo at home,
maths ws,
sc ws,
and the blahs.

i hope i got a good grade for hist.
;

2007-05-03T17:13:00.000+08:00

:)
ending my rather short hiatus!
well.
no cca today mah, so have some time to do this post!
well.
my ca2 rather sucks.
as in, really downright sucksss.
my la, maths, chi, sci and geog have landed in hell alr.
(ok pls excuse my unusual use of vulgarities/:)
well. i thought my sc was going to be okay.
apparently not.
and now i am really wishing for history?
but really i dont dare to wish for much alr.
i dno, i cant trust my instincts alr.
-
today there i saw it.
its all starting already.
the dream broke,
it just suddenly dawned on me.
it shocked me really.
yeah _____ arent good.
but.
i suppose they are unavoidable,
and (being a lil cynical) i believe that all humans have desires in themselves,
and like, cant be always so..so..generous and kind and nice and everything.
ohwell.
but i just know in this world,
if u want something,
you fight for it.
you cant possibly be so nice and kind and simply let the others have the chance so easily.
i dont know,
its easier said than done.
but i am willing to try, & show?
believe in myself.
this is not selfish thoughts,
its just, achieving things u want; aims.
but of course not deliberately hurting anyone in the process, definitely not.
only then will it get ugly.
but well..the word's deliberately.
someone have to be hurt, be the sacrificial lamb in the long run.
ah well.
dont want to think too much about such things;
only makes one more frustrated and worried,
for nothing.
-
i suddenly see everything.
i've mastered the skill of two-face so well,
i dont feel any transititon now.
its already natural.
:]
-
about better stuff,
hah i love ashley tisdale's songss!!
<3
not all, but some which are quite..nice in the tunes?
especially the slow and lyrical ones;D
time limit for writing post is over!
shall end here.

2007-04-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

ok yes thats the ytd post.
todays post:
sigh today very emo.
/: maths, n geog.
shit la i seriously felt like crying and amazingly on the bus i dint feel sleepy, and jus looked out the window and...spaced out.
or maybe thinking how wonderful this day went.
but anw, now im quite okay.
well...

thanks for bday presents again!:
wanting-kitty keychain! squish and cute!
hongkai-ok present in a BIG container of ICEE! she is attempting to flood the classroom, or particularly, my DESK. ok la, end of sch the ice still HASNT melt yet! so well i cant possibly bring the thing home (or i flood the bus seat too), so since tom im coming back, i shall take it tom:)
linkai: mr bean TEDDY! heehee yuhe also had one, and the class was hm a lil obssessed with it. esp yeujia, who is like ____ to it. hmmm BUT ok well sch ended and then heavens my poor teddy's arms' the one section of it the thread broke! luckily not really obvious, heh i dont really mind a lot la. thank you linkai! add to my dearest corky from last yr! :D

hehheh.

think im going mad drawing those art characters.
like, they are becoming violent, and crazy-looking.

anw.
will be going on hiatus for while i suppose.
/: to get back what has been lost of me these few days.

;D

ooh bef i forget!
tag replies:
hk-oops sorry heh i dint change! :) my present in ice!
gemmy-;D hello! and thankyou!!!
chengxin-arh HI! heh this is bf syf, makes me realise its quite long ago le. heh ok nvm im digressing. yay! gwh<3 but most imptly, nygz<333333333!!
joline-slimey limey! heh thankyou!
pearly-thank you laoshi! gwh sure is the most memorable prsnt ever!:)
rania-:) thank you!! hee i looked flustered?! haha:]
shermaine-thank you! hehheh.
clara-thank you also! dint know u had a blog!
chongmin-i got to eat right! if not i leave it to rot and decompose ah! bimp wimp!

maybe i shall still reply tags!
;D

2007-04-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

PS. this is actually posted on 27th april, on 26th, i posted, then rmbed that..cheemy has not done her chem test yet, and obviously since i wish her the worst of luck, yep i dnt want to leak any thing! I AM CLEVER. :D

heh i dint post ytd coz i was busy studying science!
but ah anw....
WE GOT GOLD, WITH HONOURS!
ahhh this is really such a touching moment ok, when the person announced it!
it was all silvers before us, except the first one who got gwh too;D
and yeah we were all holding hands there in our seats,
as the person announced gz108 nygh...
ahhh and we cheered like maddd!!!
at first i dint feel the exhilaration.
then it came. and it surged through me like a tsunami!! (ok bad simile nvm)
ahhh it was damn touching.
the half year of hard work, seemingly endless pracs, frequent scoldings, encouragements,
all ended in that moment.
and we got the reward.
;DDDD
bf going on the stage, i was like, telling myself i can do i can do it, coz i was really nervous about the manqijiankuai part!!! that la...
oh man when we went up to the stage,
i really felt like i was ready, and thinking back, my mind was black-as in, no other thoughts or whatsoever.
and aha, chunjie well it was well coz i do smile and feel the happiness since practices, and it was as good, or better then.
for aijiang...
well the worst case scenario-my ma dropped.
but firstly coz i sit at the back, hopefully its not obvious (but i still think the judges can see)
and secondly it was ma no 9!
dont really need that so yep.
but i think that affected my concentration, and me looking at laoshi coz i had to make sure i act when i have to play that string. xD hehheh.
but it was touching.
the last notee!!!!
so...powerful and piercing.
ahhh then when we stood i quickly took that ma and hid it and bowedd...
ahhh and yes voila! it was overrrr...
and i miss guzheng pracs like mad now.
what 2 weeks break!
i wantt!!!
uh i cried luh.
who wont. heee
then when we went to the mainhall,
yuxuan's eyes were like wet with tears, (mine dry le)
then shit i felt the crying sensation, coz i looked at her and said what our las were well and everything, and we started to cry like madd!!
ahhh she influenced me mann!!!
went back and only had cheemy n pam and some others n the sec 1s as we went on the last bus.
sang songs!
apparently cheemy is seriously out of tune, hm ok i cant sing high, but still...shes worse! hah.
skipped 3rd lang, and so happyhappy!!!
slacked, ate, slept:)
-
today is happy day too!
caoyun n escargot gave me a supposedly multi-purpose froggy container,
but i think its so suitable for my tissues!!
heh its rather cute so i jus put on my table.
today is nice,
or rather slacky.
drama, sc lab, om...
oh man speaking of sc test, i suckedd!!!!
it was rather easy as compared to the physics test last term,
and i screwed it!!!
goodness, i was hesitating whether or not to draw those electron shells,
then whatthefish even i drew n they never say, i also wont minus marks right?
and in the end i dint draw!!!
and the monoatomic n diatomic elements!!
ahhh i rmbed like one grp was mono n another dia.
then i dno, i was like in a trance like that,
know that was correct, but my hands do differently.
oh man i suck 4 marks fly awayyyy
no 5! plus that qn!
AHHHHHHHHH
shucks la i really should get 37 n above.
super damn depressed because of this.
SUPER.
dno, it jus is affecting me a lot, which shouldnt be the case because i nv used to be like this after tests, even horrible maths! which im absolutely sure i failed.
;
aft sch, went to eat chicken rice with linxi n jiinn and jiinn dragged me to go lib play scrabble with her! ah i obviously sucked at it too the highest i had was uh 33?
haiya, then went to cca around 4.
when i entered they were listening to aijiang n chunjie!
ahhhh jus one day and i miss them like crazy alr!!!
so feel like taking the gz out and playing, but that'll affect the sec ones so cannot.
jus mugging around, then pam the mad woman had a fit dragging people to go running with her!! tongzhen escaped into the door and i was left out, doomed to run with the pig.
or at least trick her i will.
haha ok actually i will la, but with 1 more person!
she was pulling my hand until it was super hot and friction and blah, laughing till she cry again, and she finally let me in for FIVE minutes to ask liyue to run together too. well..i went in, and coz i was sitting there eating biscuits, apparently forgetting abt the mad woman, so yup.
hehheh then she charged in like mad bull, and aiya and all that.
was jus playing around not doing anything at all, but its good to bond with gzers!
they rock, even more than most classmates! ;DD

aiya spent too much time on jus writing this longgglonggg post.
eh got ode and art to do.
and chi sia.
shit.
i better write a good ode, coz i seriously need to buck up and pull up in replacement of my tkam essay scores. ;(
LA is jus so impt, i jus realised that.
i shouldnt be playing around too much really.
LA must be first and top priority of mine!
-
thanks for the bday presents!:
shirlynn, germaine, clarice-uber cutecute clips!!
jiinn-;Dvoodoo dolll!!
rania-chocolates n hp cleaner!
caoyun, jessica-BIN!
limqing, qitian-AH lovely angels for the taurus keychain!
chongmin-:)the m & m's bottle
heh gwh must be the greatest n best present ever anw!
;DDD
& to people who wished me happybday & gd luck to sc test (which i disappointed myself greatly)and ooh that cool rap song shuting joline jiinn germaine were doing while waiting to go over to hci for 3angles!
haha and now they are doing that all over the class!
hah!

2007-04-24T20:19:00.000+08:00

ack!
tomorrow's the day,
the days
aha my birthday and SYF!!!
exciting, but yet tense.
hopeful, but yet still a lil afraid
hah ahhhhh
:] today's prac was better than ytd, obviously;
yesterday i was thinking of her and her,
and i seriously cant be happy for chunjie.
but well today...
everythings at the back of my mind,
not the best we all could play,
but at least i tried to make the effort, heh but yarh not to the full potential!
but now horh i feel paranoid,
coz during aijiang my mas went out twice!
i dont dare to use force at all;
ahh because it'll be absolute disaster if that happens tom/:
ahh i shouldnt think of these negative things!!
:D i can do it!
i can feel happiness for chunjie,
because i really just feel joy and the smile just comes on immediately, (i hope><) well for aijiang, sometimes i dint put the emotions in some parts. but anyway, theres nothing to fear. for tomorrow, we'll play the music together as a team, as an ensemble, as though the music is our lives, alive.
and i'll give no room for regrets when i leave the stage tom.
once i can do that,
theres basically nothing that i'll be sorry for,
and i'll be proud i can do that,
on my birthday.
touch people, and ourselves, and feel for it:]

your phone call, unexpected,
shocking,
but it was unmistakably you,
you.
it was a voice i had not heard for long,
and, it changed,
but it was still unmistakably you,
you.
i stoned for a moment,
wondering who could be calling just to wish me happy bday,
and the realisation dawned on me,
so unmistakably you,
you.
it's been so long,
but you still remembered,
and your words left a smile on my face,
more than a smile,
a pure happiness,
rising from the heart.
touched,
loss for words,
so unmistakably you,
you.
;D

2007-04-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

bongdongywongy!
ahhh today history test and stupid breast cancer and diet over!!
i think, THINK, that i well..AT LEAST did much better than my previous test, and hopefully the marks will be too. waulao i studied history, like for FORTY-FIVE minutes man! aha i did selective revision. the essay can only be about why raffles chose singapore, and why SS changed to under Brit gov and obviously assignment 1 was about stupid raffles and singapore (which i got HORRIBLY low marks) so it should be that 2nd question! hah so i only focused on that, (and some other dates and such too) and aha! it really came out in the test. it really way predictable, like what yilin said!
uh anw my geog test is sucky la!
sucks to the bottom of bottom.
/:
arhhh i got full marks for the 6mark qn, but only ONE for the second 5mark qn!!!
grr all my marks take away from there lorh. but i kinda knew i would minus a lot from there because i was being crazy and started to add in science from primary sch!?!! (disperse methods of flowering plants. yes im quite mad)
ahhh i should have written the buttress roots one!! i forgot since it came out in front...
and one big problem with me is not enough elaboration!!!
kill myselfff
;(((
thought at least i should have maintained my last time score. (which then, was already quite horrendous)
sigh nvm more tests to go, i shall study hard for mathss!!!!
yes i will!!!
ahah.
but crap la, so many thousands and millions of stuff to do over the weekend wtf!
ahhh strings got gwh today!
heh so far the sch has been getting real good syf results!
band: gold (the ONLY one that day)
chidance: gwh
strings: gwh
and still awaiting for theatre club, and choir and USS!!!
ahhhh
but sigh im missing french test stupid
as if my usual marks is not low enough, now i get like zero.
/:
and most probably i wont go on wed too?
see la, the timing and such.
ahhh...
jus rmbed jiinns new blog then want new blogskin for her! gahgah
ok shall go sleep, and plan out planner for the weekend (which i never fails to NOT complete)

YYY

2007-04-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

screwed screwed screwed
grah i have too many things to do to post.
heh.fine excuse, but i really dont have the time and dont feel like posting too.
/:wellwell..
heck home ec report!!!
diet and breast cancer!
grahhh! want to die!
shite.
i want to do a last tingxie of the chinese words before going to bed!
and i still have so many things to dooo..
and my whole week (and mon-wed of next wk too) is filled with nothing but GUZHENG GUZHENG GUZHENG.
grah.okay not complaining, but yes, everyday i reach home at like, 7+
i hate 67.
but i love sleeping on the bus. hahah!
sigh sigh i miss my old seating nowww!
yes the view is still a problem,but it was so fun with wanting hk jiinn and joline the slimey limey! and well..i dont know, i can slack better at the corner. and heh and the 'dump' behind too! the sunlight always shining on them, and crazy antics performed by yeujia and co.
uhhhh...andand zls always looking at my ren notebook!! heehee. i feel 'closer' to the teachers. ok blah la.
but well, now with a better view, and people whom i never sat with before, i suppose...no one likes changes.but changes are unavoidable, and we have to grow to accept them and make the best out of it?

jiayou!

2007-04-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

grah i cant audi because my comp is filled with virus?
i know its infested with viruses but cant be bothered to like, reboot it or sth.
/:
i dnt knw if quarantine those virus work, for none of them can be repaired wth.
bah scanning the e drive now...
-
todays om is i suppose...
dntknw.
somehow i feel...like i dint put emotions into the performance as i did usually in rehearsals.
/:
like sigh, after the whole thing ended, i dint know what i do and everything-
i dntknw if this is supposed to be good or not,
but the lines jus spilled out,
and..yarh.
well heck the performance, its not really important.
:] our structure was well!
heh 80.5 pounds!
/: well only around 35kg la...but i suppose they said the omsg got 75pounds leh.
we dint go for the testing for omsg coz ahem apparently someone dint bring.
ok nvm its in the past la,
and they changed the structure so the current might be stronger.
it appears to?
anw oops i said the wrong thing to amanda and szeyuan! heh i forgot it was 80.5pounds, not kgg..
gah anw the sec4 team aft us is pro okay!
the 4 beams is like really thickkk,
and i dnt knw how it can be 18g only!
and they started with those gigantic olympaid weights lor! that are most probably like, 5? 10? kg or even more. and they really could stack a lott!
gahh.
wellwell.
eeks the om prsnt cut into lunch, ok so well i dint manage to go down to bring everything down to audiii..but well called chongmin, and hah ate the only thing i had the whole day-chickenrice with veggie and egg! (omg i typed eye at first) with tongy, ruthie, fantong, and ahhh shit i cant rmb if...ohoh it was yangxi yes. the chinese dancer also. who wrote on the class board when i came back ltr.
stupid mrs amy, keep delaying geog prsnt.
/:
want to get over and done with.
bahhhh..
-
then it was guzheng syf prac in audi!
mrs ee came to watch and gave comments and suggestions,
and aha i rmb she said we very guai dont talk at all while the teachers are talking.
sigh and i feel i deproved.
dnt knw, jus felt like, i had no confidence in the yaozhi part for aijiang kuai ban.
feel like i always out of beat or sth.
tsk i must listen listen.
then it was break, and well pam talked about meetings and stuff,
and laoshi came to talk also, and she said the last row dint look at her.
hmmmmm? sigh i thought i looked at her quite a lot of time lor. :x esp during chunjie.
okay i shouldnt say this, i should listen to her and look MORE.
and...about now i partner with wenjiao..
grah i dntknw, i feel like, because aftall shes my senior, i dnt know how to talk to her if well she dont go for pracs and stuff in these 2 crucial weeks.
sighhhh.
oh well.
'guzheng 3 is falling apart'
-
i suppose i was surprised when she exclaimed when there isnt cca prac aft sch. (because apparently only me n chongmin [& pam la] were free?)
i dont know, in my mind, i thought she was a good senior, not like someone who will say yay when we dnt have pracs. like, she should have seen that we really do need pracs, and everyone in gz3 (ok nt EVERYONE) is not exactly serious enough? bah including me. at times because i really still have many flaws. like look more (but hm i really thought i did much more than like, a month ago, but perhaps its not enough yeah?) the yaozhi part, be sure of dynamics, be steadyy, and hm ok now the fa# is well oookkayyy..but yes i must prac if ill go back to the old state.
deux semaine,
vraiment juste deux semaine,
au jour.
(shit is it au ah. tsk haiya)
i shall try audi again.
hm must do scsia aftsch, and prac guzheng la.
seriously at home.
well lasttime, it was kinda revision i played and prac-ed everything taught before.
but actually i do play better if prac-ed with someone. /:
ah well.
guzheng 3...

2007-04-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

shoots i think im blogging too much in jus like, an hour.
i dontknow,
i jus feel like typing.
then i dont wanna go edit my earlier posts.
hah.
-
ayeayeeayeee.
i was wrong,
i was so wrong to see and think of her that way.
its like, the same thing how she viewed her.
and now i personally experienced,
i really was wrong.
want to thank for making me see my flaws.
i dint used to do that,
but now i am.
well im growing up.
aiya dontknow what im talking abt.
-
tears jus nearly whelmed over the top.
started from the deep core of the soul,
and stopped at the brim of the windows to the soul.
[ok that was so _____]
shit why my feelings change so easily,
jus in a matter of a few minutes,
a few seconds,
ayeaye guilty of what i thought of laoshi.
/: so many guilt.
learn so many
guilt so many,
but i must also start doing something.
to show tears arent wasted,
to show that her efforts arent wasted.
such a strange world;
and they say during the student life,
its the most relaxing period of the entire life.
really,
i cant imagine when im 20 or sth.
ok too far-fetched.
jus 15 days,
just quinze jours.

no more tears shed,
no more sorrys.

2007-04-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

presevere, presevere, presevere.
its might seem like millions of times ive told myself,
but really,
focus.
with jus 2 weeks left, it aint much time,
and i need to get myself back.
be consistent.

that matter; it aint gna matter,
whats important is to learn and practise what laoshi said.
that matter; it shouldnt matter,
for man should never be narrow-minded,
or selfish,
or self-centered.
that matter; jus throw into the incinerator and burn.
it gna be jus alright-

[yay thanks to fantong i straightened my mind out]
:]

2007-04-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

today is so sucky.
dont know why,
dont know how.
everythings going down since the morning, till afternoon. till night. till now.
aye i dont know i feel that hopeless and sad and desperate emotion again.
down feelings.
i dont feel like, & dont wanna recount stuff,
so tired and blahing-
and toms appointment.
and just so nice they have to come this few days.
erh shitty la.
om and geog prsnt this thur.
stupid i hate home ec.

go away go away;
this just cant be happening again-
tell me what to do,
to set free
and make everything back to the way they had been.

2007-04-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

tired & jus came back from 3rd lang.
someone jus quitted from my class again.
sigh, i sometimes dont know if i should continue this whole thing,
because at times i really feel desperate and hepeless.
like, i jus dont see improvements or sth.
/: & frankly speaking, its quite tiring too.
dont know, but i also dont know if i should quit a not.
well now its not because of parents issue, because they would agree anw now,
but because i jus 不甘愿半途而废?
dont know; im possibly jus being childish.
-
tag replies;
rania: exactly lorh! not like she sing until very lan or sth. and usually she likes to flaunt one, now so shyy..
fantong: hello miss u still say u went thru choir auditions man! anyone who passed that shouldnt be singing badly at all leh. yes, u sang 3 words huh? so smart chongmin. and i tagged u a lot lorh okay! tag me ah pok! audiaudi! :]
lydia: ;) np, always here if u need a listening ear! aha :)
tongy: oops really uh. DO GEOG!! ok i shall remind u tonite. :]
yuhui: yeah we'll all jiayou!! :)
pam: arh pam so nan2de2 tag me! well dont worry too much la..well its tom..& yeah jiayou too!!
-thinks of how self-obsessed & crazy pam is today-
gemmy: heh icic;D
hk: yesyes got it right la. a real haunted is like really cool man! aha. yeah okay u can lend me read it if its nt gna be overdue yet! shoots im mad. i jus thought u called my name. as in, below my house. o.o
-
today lunch is funny!
arh i went the first 10-15 min doing the art model, painting and sticking together,
and rushed off to m3 to meet gz3.
waulao i thought i was late (hm ok i AM late) and everyone will be in m3 alr,
then i opened the door and i saw was wenjiao & rania fixing their gz strings, and pam sitting eating her dont-know-what.
! eh apparently wanted to play the vcd then dntknw how to then waiting for me coz i was playing it during cca.
gah i played and yujian rania n i kept saying pam looked damn tut and dapai la! mimicked those 3 rounds of applause that finally had pam coming out.
heh she looked like a robott!!
and ltr watching hengchun n rose, pam became self-obsessed or sth and kept wanting to look at herself. ?? crazy girl la:]
gah then went to return key n cd and i think i definitely went at the wrong time coz yuhui and gz2 was having a serious meeting and i was like, crazy-eyed and gave the cd to yuhui. :x disrupted them!
gah then i dint return the key!
stupid pam return from toliet and gave to yuhui again.
gahh maths is dumb 3rd lang is dumber!
aha the busdriver was drving us to ghimmoh!/:
so sad someone went up and told him, and he led us a tour around singapore or sth.
but sadly we were only late for 5 minutes!! grah..
eeks have quite some things to do,
tom hand up art, and face laoshi/:
okay im not like terrified or wad, jus uncertain what her emotions and mood might turn out to be. hope for the best. ive gotta train my fa#

hehheh.

2007-04-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

hm. i dint expect erh this amount of people to tag my board! ahah. ok i shall replyy coz im lazy to reply thru the tagboard bcoz there is quite a number.
pam: yesyes wozhidaole!! grah but really want to. :x yay my tagboard, which is created by me! ahah.
lydia: ah hello dear senior! :) dont be emo! ^^(like what i used to be in the past)
tongy: grah im nice, i think i found some relevant websites for stupid GDP. hm i shall send them to you later. jiayou for om horh, tho i dont really what is going on in ur grp, but jiayou! sigh om is stupid and sucks.
gemmy: HII! aha gemmy how did u find my blog?! and shirlynn too! how on earth did your know my blog??
fantong: EH i suddenly JUST realised that the clock displayed on my blog entries is ALL WRONG de leh. coz i saw bakguteh. and i ate that for lunch. i posted that like, in the morning! aha now u cant say have a nice day is a stupid way to end a post.
hkk: heheheheee...! yes wouldnt it be nice to kill heng? ahhh just imagine...and erm what is your url arh? i tried wishedwhispers wishingwhispers wishwhispers all not correct one! & ;D hauntedd houseeeee... 'oh how can i carry on, oh how can i live! for i lost my only child, my christyy...' hee.

eeyer smelly & sweaty now. just 'exercised'.
gah 6 have to go. now its 4.45. ohdear. i must finish my mathss!!!
gahgah.
today guzheng was erh, early?
xP really what 8 oclock leh.
bah, my fa# is not 准! :( aha laoshi kept saying '佳音! 按多多!'
must practice must practice.
and today chongmin is being erh erh ____ by not singing-
oops i just typed out the song name! ah i am not stupid i wont reveal the song:P
mustgomustgo!

2007-04-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

ohdear.
shitty.
bleah.

2007-04-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

:]
yay its good friday and i am in a happy mood today!
perhaps i really overcame it,
for i felt pure joy and thankfulness for her that day,
and not jealousy and all that crap.
weeheee~
listening to all those songs pam asked us to play!
grah i shall erh put up those songs on my blog!
aha yesss...
anw ytd,
grahhhhh stupid centre of gravity
i was like trying to get up with my bag, and the file in my hands,
i dont know whyyy,
i just lost balance and fell backwardss...
;(
then stupid tongzhen fantong and the seniors esp pam laugheddd!!
grah but i dint really take anything to the heart la,
because it was funny.
i could have burst out laughing myselffff..
ahahhhh.
kill tongzhen.
like, i am such a nice person,
i told pam abt the incident,
because ohwell, hm partly because szeyuan started it!
and there wasnt any reason why i shouldnt tell pam too.
yes i am a good girl coz well i know pam cares abt tongzhen,
(and i care toooo!)
so i told her abt that incidentt!
(okay actually maybee i said a lil too much abt the letter, but it was jus what i saw! gah i dint know at that time...)
pam suggested to go to my class to look for her,
and aha tongzhen was jus walking down the coridor aft om.
killing me.
okay no la,
oh yes andand! because the whole class went to learning journey AND zhanglaoshi who said '好吧! 才六个人for cme? 哈哈, 我们开party! 带东西给他们吃!' NEVER CAME, i and tongy went to library to use laptop,
AND SO FREAKY,
tongzhen obviously logged on once she tried,
then i couldnt!!!
as in aft millions of times!!
then i went to the other laptop beside her,
and ALSO CANNOTTT!!!
waulao spent FIFTEEN minutes trying to log on,
changing passwords,
changing domain,
AND.
when its time to leave,
tongzhen logged off hers,
and let me try her laptop,
IT LOGGED ME IN THE FIRST TIME.
so stupidddd!!!!
grrr...
yes and when i fell she said its retribution.
-narrows eyes-
grr...
but it really was jus freaky.
gahhhh...
hmph tongzhen go find GDP and add to the ppt yourself!
;P
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pink polka dotttsss..
pantiesss...
ahahahh-.-
yes mr chiang in that hongkaii!!
-cant & shouldnt & mustnt imagine-
-
nth much to talk abt leh ytd.
oh, cikgu hanim dint come!!
aha so we did the om backdroppp!!
very late la,
but well amendments, amendments.
it looks nice and cozy i suppose.
:]
sigh now abt the sound effectss!
and how to support backdroppp..
tskkk
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aha recently nt emo,
(eh fantong said that in her blog too, nvm heh)
and thats good:]
let go la,
and 看得开.
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ahhh nice day,
eating bakguteh(eh is it gu?)
later,
:(( enjoyment from being 'chauffeured' ends next wk.
/:
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have a nice dayy...
:]

headache

2007-04-04T19:26:00.000+08:00

tag replies:
hk-yes girl happy bday anw u like my octopus right! (tho i said wanted a more symbolic prsnt, the doodoo did had some meaning in it too[:)
shirlynn-ahah sorryyy and yesss u can link me! i was more antisocial? bla dont know what im talking about! ;D

yay so this blog is now offcially opened to public.
ahah.
hmmmm...
stupid headache.
tsk sigh ahhh why am i sick
damn had fever on mon, then this stupid headache ytd and today.
i suppose ltr go see doctorr...
but i dont want mc for tom!
bla i wanna go GUZHENGGGG...and see wonderful om prsnt!! (tongy & yogi & chunny & linxiny & ethelly & clarice & sarahh!! aftall they rly spent a LOT on the props, basically on this om thingy. really a lot man. i must applause them.)
digressing.
back to topic.
aiya like aft sitting even for a while i stand up, my head will start to pain!
its at the back of my head, and it has like a rhythmic beat? *painn* 2sec *painn* 2sec *painn* and it goes on for perhaps a few minutes?
arhhh and when i bend down it starts to pain too.
;(((((
i dont wanna be sickk...
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thanks pam, for doing that, and well trying to believe us and give us a chance?
yeah i know i really am quite slow reaction, and therefore blur, and well my specs keep sliding down, and it was esp during the concert, i noticed that, and like, i tried to look up for the last few songs, esp endless love, then my specs just keep sliding!! i was like panicking coz i dont know if i look like a old granny trying to look at the conductor. i dont know.
yes this is an excuse, like i once tried to simply think 'aiya i was born just slow reaction. i just CANT get it right so fast' but that really was just excuses.
and the specs one.
and that strand of hairr...yes wanting! i knoww look so extra there.
grahh i looked at the concert clip and realised i looked damn ugly la.
like my back is still hunched, (tho i tried to straighten, but obviously not enough yet) and my specs really is blocking in the way.
/:
excuses.
i shall really try to concentrate on what laoshi says in front!
and have more confidence?
well i always need confirmation from others beside me, and when i dont get it, i really kinda lose confidence then dont know what to play too.
move move move,
and ahhh all the new actions!
on the right beat right beatt!!
ok gone mad.
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and to think i once thought that of her.
i am really so ashamed.
guilty; of the fact i would even have that thought.
how could i not even understand the simple reason behind all these?
really am deserved to be punished.
after all that she has done...
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gah hahah i like -
i am random.
my feelings are like...the weather?
the stock exchange market!
up up down down down up up down.
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2007-03-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

yoohooo
havent tell anyone my blog yet
i dont really know if i should too.
like,
it'll probably become a 'private' blog again,
because no one will care to tag or read.
:[
uhhh
but i suppose i will reveal one day.
ah now i must learn to blog more discreetly.
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知足常乐!
itll be so good if i could ever master that skill.
like,
i would spend time so much happier, and i'll enjoy life mch better too!
received personality report today-
it'slike SO true man.
soooo trueee.
i really like cant let go, and very nt willing to delegate, stm even to people i trust ability in.
yeah, and ill trust those people whom i know that can do a good job to lead, yarh.
and im afraid of rejection and criticism!
and i kinda want recognition for my ability.
ah so true.
:/ im an advocate!
i thought i was an advisor at first.
SI? or SCI?
yeah so it turned out to be SCI!
gah
stupidstupid
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i wanna learn jappp.
my mum says shell let me learn that in the hols!
yay!!
okay i know im like very ambitious,
but i really wanna gaohao my languages,
and be kinda proficient in that area.
i suppose my chinese and la arent WORST, but yeah still acceptable (ihope)
then my french...
im pinning my hopes on this french test.
:/
i dont know...
but somehow i felt more confidence..
:] believe in yourself!
BUT STILL my listening is as bad as ever la.
;DDD
yay jiayoujiayoujiayou!
hey jiayun we are cousins!
ahaha
JYJYJY!
yay pro juniors i have.
lan senior i am.
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must jiayoujiayou!!

2007-03-27T22:24:00.001+08:00

eheh how to strikeout!
blabla apparently it cant!

eh i love this new blogskin!!!
so damn nice okay!
and it's hard for me to choose a skin i like,
coz it must be eye-pleasing,
cannot black background,
must have a font that i like,
have nice sub headings,
nice picture,
and a theme i like. :)

trying to feel up the page!
rawrrawr
arh must do french rev la
gogogogo
i love guzheng!
i love my LG LCD monitor!
how abt saying in french!
yes rev while blogging.
j'aime mon LCD monitor qui est dix-neuf inches et est tres clear!
mon pere l'a achete pour quatre-vingt-dix neuf!
je veux apprender japonais!!!
je deteste le francais, vraiment.
grrr....
il est deja dix heures trente-quatre du soir!
grr je dois rappeler mes numeros!!!!
bahh
okay back to normal.

2007-03-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello testtesttest
:]]]
YYY
yo baby

wassup eh?

a devil!